My daughter has seizures every day. At one point, they were as frequent as three times every five minutes. That is 864 every day.
Did I just write that? May had over 800 seizures a day?
As I mull over those numbers, a nauseating weight grows in my belly. Yet, I’m thinking even worse things; like… those were only the ones we saw. Some seizures don’t manifest themselves physically.
It is a horrible thing to say, but May’s seizures were so frequent, that I’d discuss them as casually as the weather. If people stopped to ask if she was shaking from cold or fear, I’d respond, “Oh, no need to worry, it’s only a seizure.” They all looked at me like I was insane. Most asked if they should call for medical assistance. “No, it’s fine,” I’d say. It’s a wonder Social Services never knocked at my door.
I should add that the doctors don’t think the seizures will damage her brain any further. But, seizures that frequent do interrupt activity and, therefore, could be hurting her long-term development.
Fast forward six months. May is now on her sixth medication trial. And, we think it is working.
It has been a very slow process, made slower by the agonizing time-lapse, sometimes weeks, until a drug starts to take effect. Then, an even longer wait as the drugs are slowly built up in the system in order to see if they really work to remove the seizures entirely.
When we started May on Toparimate, it we saw amazing results, but then May regressed and her seizures returned. They never returned to 3x/5 minutes, but we did sometimes hit 3x/10 minutes.
As the Toparimate seemed to help to some degree, we kept her on that and started her on Sodium Valporate. Another nail-biting three weeks of no change, and then one day, we noticed a marked decrease.
During the time she was seizure free, she made all kinds of progress. And, she was just happier. Who wouldn’t be?
But, if May is tired, ill or teething, the seizures return. So, the past couple weeks we’ve experienced days with a couple of seizures in total, and days of two or three/hour, still a vast improvement.
At some point, we will have to weigh the balance of drugging May more and possibly hurting her development as a result, or her enduring some seizures but less medication. This week, we meet with the Boss, who will advise.
(This is a bit sneaky of me actually, as this appointment was made back when we waited three months to see him last time. I “forgot” to cancel it. Some genius thought it was a good idea to schedule an appointment for a child having 18 seizures/hour, five months later.)
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